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My worst failure has always been my failure to foster a solid work ethic in myself. For the past three years I've been indiscriminately napping my way through every class. It didn't matter what -- maths, french, social studies... the second I put my head down on that desk I was out like a light. At home, I didn't spend more than fifteen minutes on any assignment, and this chronic slacking habit never went punished because although I put in minimal effort, I never failed a class.
Somewhere down the line I started caring, maybe when I rediscovered that I actually liked learning. Takes a lot to reverse a habit that's been building for a lifetime, though. There's so much I'm interested in, and so much I failed to pay attention to. I'm trying to get myself to get up earlier so I can work for longer, but you could replace my alarm clock with a time bomb and it still wouldn't wake me up. Maybe I should focus on sleeping earlier...
My primary pursuit at the moment is trying to teach myself all the math I missed before tackling more advanced stuff. Math has to be learned actively, through doing exercises. Me, I've gotten by barely having done any assigned work in four years, so there are some harrowing gaps in my knowledge. But I'm determined to learn calculus, so if that means I have to work through all of algebra II and trig again and teach myself functions and limits, so be it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I'm heading to bed now. Hopefully, I'll have at least six hours of studying ahead of me tomorrow and enough time left over to get out of the house.
Somewhere down the line I started caring, maybe when I rediscovered that I actually liked learning. Takes a lot to reverse a habit that's been building for a lifetime, though. There's so much I'm interested in, and so much I failed to pay attention to. I'm trying to get myself to get up earlier so I can work for longer, but you could replace my alarm clock with a time bomb and it still wouldn't wake me up. Maybe I should focus on sleeping earlier...
My primary pursuit at the moment is trying to teach myself all the math I missed before tackling more advanced stuff. Math has to be learned actively, through doing exercises. Me, I've gotten by barely having done any assigned work in four years, so there are some harrowing gaps in my knowledge. But I'm determined to learn calculus, so if that means I have to work through all of algebra II and trig again and teach myself functions and limits, so be it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I'm heading to bed now. Hopefully, I'll have at least six hours of studying ahead of me tomorrow and enough time left over to get out of the house.
